2.03.2011

The Worst Week Ever.

I haven't posted in a week. It has been a long, long week. We have been dealing with a broken bone (Pretty), a totaled car (Jake), an ear infection (Pretty again) and general unhappiness. Not sleeping much, stressing about insurance, and more crying than has been heard in a long time (and not all of it was Pretty!).

I have been sewing, but mostly just to keep from going crazy, to have something I can completely control. Plus, I'm trying to get everything taken care of before we leave for our trip in one week!

I have a feeling this next week is going to be much better. Things are looking up. But when you're at the bottom, most things are up by default.

I'll share pictures and projects later, but for right now, I'm just going to breath deeply and smile. We are alive, not entirely healthy, but not especially sick either. I think I need to take some of my own advice and live my life with more confidence. When things go wrong with my family, and especially with the kids, it's easy to fall into the habit of doubting myself. Doubting I was really ready for kids. Doubting I know what's best for them and the family. Doubting my decision to not pursue being a ballerina and buying a unicorn like I wanted to when I was 4. Ok, I never really wanted either of those things. But when everything happened this last week, I wanted it badly then.

I need more confidence. Having never picked a theme word for this year (like a lot of people do), I think that will be mine. CONFIDENCE.  Trust myself. I can do this.



*added: Pretty broke her left tibia (big bone in the lower leg) with a buckle fracture, which is a more minor type of break. It was separate from the car accident. Jake was alone in the car on his way home from work and has no injuries.

2 comments:

Bree said...

So sorry to hear all you've been going through! I hope everything picks up quickly & everybody gets healthy soon!

Heidi said...

What a week! Did Pretty's broken arm happen in the car accident? Sad, either way :( Good luck Viv!